Come As You Are
My true, authentic self was something I thought I always shared with others; I felt that I was always expressing myself in the most authentic way possible. Until I faced challenges or hurdles, or surrounded myself with people that hadn’t ever served my higher purpose. My ugly face would shine through, and I would find that I would turn to anger, judgement or self-righteousness.
Ah ya no…that is not at all what being authentic currently looks like for me. It’s funny how my view of authenticity changes as I grow and learn from previous mistakes. Being authentic in my life means just being me. What does being me mean? Who knows, I am still figuring it out. What I do know, if I step into my authenticity shoes, is that I am a very caring, honest, loving, loyal (I can’t stress the loyalty card enough), and confident woman who trips and falls on her behind, daily. I make mistakes all the time, I laugh them off, at times I still judge myself for them. I have the awareness to re-focus and re-charge from the downfalls, and get back up with more strength and stability then the last fall. I am the joker of the group, because that is just who I am! I have a great ability to listen while bringing insight when it’s needed. I’m stubborn, I can be a stress ball, yet I can always find the quiet in the storm.
I will be that person doing the classic “fist pump” on the dance floor, and the next morning sitting in stillness on my mat. I am part of the collective consciousness, raising awareness to those closest to me and within my community about the power of love, the ability to self heal and the importance of self care. It has taken me a long time to get to where I am, to the place of acceptance of who I am without constant judgment or blame. This, to me, is being an authentic person. Exposing my truths, my weaknesses, my gifts, and my talents for all the world to see.
The lyric, “Come as you are, as you were, as I want you to be” by Nirvana, plays in my head as I write this. To all of you: I love you all as you are!