My awesomeness habit is daily meditation. I am now committed to it, as I understand its value in my life, but it wasn’t always that way.
I resisted meditation for a really long time. Over the years I would make occasional attempts at it but the monkeys jumping around in my brain would always win out. “One of these days, meditation is going to be really good for me.” This was my mantra. Patience and consistency are the keys to reaping the benefits of any good habit, and since I had neither at the time, the magic of meditation eluded me.
Last year, I signed up for a month of hot yoga classes with my hubby. Lying in Shavasana at the end of the class, eyes closed, hot, sweaty and tired, I would just breathe. Sometimes the monkeys were there, better behaved than usual. Sometimes I would fall asleep. And sometimes there was a moment, a magical moment, where I was…connected.
These moments were subtle and fleeting but they felt so good. I was calmer, happier, and these little intuitive whispers would rise into my awareness from some unknown place. This was something I wanted to feel more often! I started practicing.
As with any new habit, there were good days and not-so-good days. I had this preconceived notion that my mind had to be perfectly still. No way my monkey brain was just going to allow that to happen! So I started listening to guided meditations. I found it easier to focus on my breath and follow someone else’s voice as they guided me on my journey inwards. I really enjoyed the different stories that each meditation told. My imagination was being used in a way I hadn’t used it since I was a kid. Awesome! Most days the meditation was just that, a meditation. It was a way to calm down after a stressful day or situation, or to feel better if I was feeling a little blue. However, I also started having experiences that I can only describe as magical; I would receive an idea, insight, or thought that popped in and was so clear and strong that I had to take notice. My monthly vision board workshops are a result of one of these meditations! I’ve learned to listen for those intuitive “nudges” during the day, outside of meditation, and have now realised the more I open myself up to them, the more frequently I receive them.
I’ve also learned that I don’t need an extended period of time for meditation. I found if I was busy, and felt like I didn’t have “time” I would skip it. One day missed would sometimes extend into a week missed. And ladies did I ever notice the difference! When I meditate regularly I am calmer, happier and more peaceful. Meditation connects me to my own brand of personal magic, my ‘knowing’. When I meditate regularly life seems to flow more easily and with lots of synchronicities, coincidences, and “a-ha” moments…magical awesomeness! When I don’t meditate, I am more easily triggered by external situations or people. And I’m definitely not as patient. So, I’ve learned that ten minutes is better than no minutes!
I’d love to hear if anyone else uses meditation as a way to connect to self, or if you have another way of doing so.
Written by: Kirsten Frey