Seed Catalogs of Desire
From the Ringing Cedar Book Series – Book 1: Anastasia:
Before planting, put into your mouth one or more little seeds, hold them in your mouth, under the tongue, for at least nine minutes.
Then place the seed between the palms of your hands and hold it there for about thirty seconds. During this time, it is important that you be standing barefoot on the spot of earth where you will later be planting it.
Open your hands, and carefully raise the seed which you are holding to your mouth. Then blow on it lightly, warming it with your breath, and the wee little seed will know everything that is within you.
I was flipping through the “seed catalogs of desire” a few months ago. Tasting the desire, taking time to feel the feelings and play with different scenes in my mind. Seed planting came early in Los Angeles. The sun was already warming my face and encouraging me to dream and connect with the seeds.
The first seeds I chose from the catalog were “a home of my own.” As I wrote a few weeks ago, that was a bright, shiny packet of seeds from the past. Choosing the packet of “home” seeds was like choosing to plant a white potato because it was familiar, and I know I like the way it tastes. But, choosing that was limiting me from exploring other varieties. So, I kept looking and exploring until I found the purple variety of potato. My mouth began watering and my heart was buzzing. The seed of that desire, the purple variety, has already bloomed into a three-month house sit in Seattle, with a car, and will be ready for harvesting on June 11.
Flipping through the seed catalog of desire once again, there are more seeds to choose and plant:
First Variety is writing.
Each day begins with drinking a glass of lemon water. Then, heating water for my first cup of coffee of the day while opening the writing document to read some of the words from the previous day’s writing session. I feel the words and breathe while sitting in meditation for 15 minutes before writing. Turning on the “muse song” of the summer by Jason Mraz: Have it All, I open to the inspiration of words, writing for three hours every morning. Tasting the words, rolling them around on my tongue, savoring the deliciousness of this writing time. Deep breath. My happy place.
By the end of the summer, the yield will include:
- Heal My Voice: An Evolutionary Woman’s Journey
- A novel about a woman’s experience, using the notes and text messages from eight months of Intimacy research with a man.
- 100 daily inspirations for the Writing Incubator and rolling that into a book.
- Study Guide for Empowered Voices: True Stories by Awakened Women.
- Following the rhythm of creativity and writing, more ideas are flowing: (Two new book ideas came to me this week. I organized a space to collect the words, as they download.) There is no pressure to finish the new projects the summer. The ideas are setting a path for the future.
Second Variety is the body.
I found a website that lists all the Farmer’s Markets in Seattle. Once a week, I stroll down the aisles of the marketplace and tune into my body’s wants and needs. Preparing meals for myself every day, I am tuned in and conscious. Which foods feel nurturing? How is my body responding? Are there changes to make? What does my body want to eat now? There is a new rhythm and flow in my body. I can feel the life force, as I dance and connect with yoga. My OM partners in Seattle are committed to the practice. The cultivation of attention, connection and power is pulsing in my body. I find myself wearing clothes that are more colorful and fun. My body is humming and buzzing. I love and appreciate my body.
Activities this summer include:
- Weekly trips to the farmer’s market
- Juice cleansing
- Yoga practice
- Mirror Work: reconnecting to the inside of me
- Dance and sing out loud daily
- OM (Orgasmic Meditation) practice reignited
- Clothes exploring: weekly trips to try on clothes. What do I like? What feels good on my body? A weekly practice to experience.
Third Variety is Creativity: Feeding the Artist
Setting up a calendar of activities this summer, knowing that some days I follow the wander love and on other days, there are events scheduled. I am a vessel receiving inspiration and from that I am filled to overflowing with a generous heart that has plenty to give to others.
Activities this summer include:
- Listen and dance to live music
- Daily walks to the arboretum
- Art museums
- Wander love
- Practice Spanish
As I plant the seeds on this typed page, in Consciously Woman, I follow the guidance from Anastasia. I imagine myself holding each seed in my mouth, under the tongue, standing barefoot on the ground. I hold each seed, each desire, each intention in my hands. Blowing a sweet prayer of gratitude from my essence, into the seed, breathing life into it, releasing this vision, watering, and savoring the fruits of desire, all summer long.